This was what I told a friend in an im.
I couldn’t retype it all.
This is all too crazy.
Sorry about the lazy grammar and sentence structure.
I just remembered the dream I had last night.
I died.
Like literally.
I died.
I felt myself die.
I was like really close to where a nuclear bomb hit.
and I died instantly
but like, I had this slow motion thing
and in this split second, I felt this incredible amount of pain.
I felt my skin melt off my body.
I felt it and it was the most unbearable pain in the world.
and I remember my soul leaving my body
and I remember right as my soul was leaving, right before I died, I thought. Max.
And I had this overwhelming feeling of pain and sadness because I would never get to see him again.
That incredible pain of my skin melting off my body and actually dying was not close to the pain my heart felt at the thought of not seeing him again.
I can’t even believe I remember this.
and literally the dream ended.
I died
and the dream ended
everything went black
just went black
I died
and it all went black
but it was even weird, like feeling myself die. It wasn’t one of those, like, my dream self could feel it but I couldn’t. I FELT IT.
and by the way, the other weird thing about the dream? When it went black, I couldn’t feel myself. You how in a dream you always feel your presence right? I couldn’t feel me at all. It was like I wasn’t me. I was just nothing.
